Did I miss THE CLASS?
You know, that class that taught everyone how to be ‘normal’? … I keep looking around me and notice that I am, to put it gently, different. I’m not saying that to boost my own ego (it’s big enough), It’s just that at this point I literary have no other way to describe myself.
“A moment of your time:” state=”open”]Let me take a moment to tell you that this is a rant (some might say an egotistical one), if you have no room for a rant in your life right now, then turn back, stop reading this right now, and go read something thought provoking.
Why is it that at 19 years of age I have more drive to do what I love in life and start living NOW than the vast majority of people around me? Why am I the only person I know who isn’t waiting for some magical moment in the future to start living (I quit college)?
Let’s take it one step farther, why am I the only person I know that actually works towards their goals and dreams day and night? Why am I the only person I know that actually sets out a step-by-step plan on how to accomplish those goals and dreams? Come to think of it, why am I the only person I know with a day-to-day schedule? Not a to-do list, but a real schedule, with everything having a specific time to be accomplished.
Why am I the only person I know who’s actually fascinated by other languages and is actually working towards learning them ALL (I’m fluent in two, and currently (re)learning French… then Spanish)? Why am I the only person I know who actually reads blog posts fully and not just skims them? You know that guy that spends 5-10 minutes on a site and listens to the hour-long podcasts, yup, *raises hand* that’s me.
Why am I the only person I know who loves both being an introvert AND an extrovert… equally?
I love being in a room, headphones on, ignoring everybody, doing work… just as much as I love being in a crowd, on stage, in front of hundreds of people, dancing my ass off.
Why am I the only teenager/young adult I know not that interested in sex?! Yes, I have hormones and I do get aroused from time to time, and yes, I went through that whole sex-fiend phase (what guy hasn’t), and yes, sex is amazing (with the right people), but it doesn’t have to consume all your thoughts from sun up ’till sundown.
Why am I the only person I know who doesn’t watch television? Why am I the only person I know that doesn’t play video games or find them that fascinating? Seriously, I know nothing about video games (I fake it). I know nothing about COD, God of War 3 (I heard it’s amazing), or 2K10 (I only know about them because of the friends I have). Here’s a secret, I barely know how to work the systems (PS3, Xbox, etc.) themselves (shush, tell no one).
Why am I the only person my age who actually reads? Do you know how hard it is to find people my age who actually read books?! And, I’ll totally be sexist here and say that women read far more than men, I literary have’t found any other guy who reads as much as I do.
Why is it that I’m the only person my age, who if you check their iPod (iPhone in my case), you’ll find audiobooks, podcasts, and lectures? Why is it that I’m the only person my age who’s actually punctual?! I’m tired of somehow arriving 2 hours before everyone else when we clearly agreed on a set fucking time.
Why am I the only person my age who’s actually blogging daily?
Why am I the only person my age who talks to over 4,000+ Facebook friends, over 5,000+ Twitter followers, answers over 100+ eMails a day, writes at least one 1,000+ word article a day, and reads 20+ blog posts per day, all without staying online for more than 2.5 hours?
Why am I the only GUY vegan I know? Why does every person who finds out I’m vegan ask me, “what girl changed you”? Dude, I did this MYSELF! Why am I the only person I know who does both “geeky” things (like programming, and maintaining an online presence) and “cool” things (like professional krump dancing)?
Why am I the only person I know who keeps track of their finances? Why am I the only person my age who has stocks and shares? Why am I the only person my age who’s actually deeply fascinated by both marketing, business, SEO, entrepreneurship and art, music, and dance? Why am I the only person my age who’s deeply fascinated by philosophy and psychology?
Why am I one of the few people I know who doesn’t want to ever have a ‘real’ job (I’d rather run my own company). And, why do I have to hide all these things in public? Why must I always constrain myself just so that other’s won’t think I’m weird?
Why? Why? WHY?!?
Why haven’t I found someone else like me? Am I not looking hard enough? Am I hanging with the wrong people? Did I miss a class?
Did I miss a class that told people not to do all these things? Not to feel passionate about a variety of things? And, not to take life seriously at a young age?
*Sigh* If you can’t tell by now, I’m frustrated by all this.
I didn’t write this post so that I can somehow brag about myself. I wrote it for two main reason,
- I had to let this off my chest (thanx for allowing me to), and
- I’m looking for someone similar to me.
I’m looking to talk to someone as driven as me. I’m looking to talk to someone my age who actually takes this blogging thing as serious as I do. I’m looking for someone who has as much passion for business, art, and philosophy as I do (yes, they’re varied topics, but that’s the point). I’m looking for someone who I can actually talk to about things such as “game theory” and actually know what I’m talking about. I’m looking for people who have that entrepreneurial drive in them, and are just itching to start their own company. If that’s you, eMail me.
I’m looking for people who missed the same class I did.